whoa it's been more than a week since i blogged in here. have i been THAT busy? no i haven't been doing SHIT for the past week no STUDY no NOTHING! i feel like crap. i dont wanna fail the fucking HSC but i couldn't be fucked studying! why?! why have i no fucking MOTIVATION?! why am i swearing?! am i pissed off?! what the fuck is PISSING ME OFF?!?! stoopid fucking bullshit i swear to god! why should i be pissed?! did i do something wrong?! if i did IM SORRY?!?!?! aaaaaargh i cant take this shit anymore. i have no fucking life! im bored outta my brains and all i can think of is to be fucken angry at EVERYONE. *SUS!!!* i dont need this right now. i've been online since practically 9.38am which is REALLY FUCKING BAD! my ass is so comfortable on this chair though.

uno what word i hate right this moment? it's the "whatever.." word! it just makes me *ARGHZ* i cant explain it.. it's like a "I DONT CARE" word... ok yeah enough of me being... ME?!

im just sick and tired of trying to make EVERYBODY HAPPY!... cant u ppl out there see that I WANNA BE HAPPY TOO?! and YOU HAVE TO MAKE AN EFFORT?! i may be some person who doesn't share my feelings but I HAVE FEELINGS TOO!... so what if i dont show it.. does that make me a bad person? NO IT DOESNT... AND WHY AM I BITCHING ABOUT NOTHING?! fuck man... is it my time of the month or what? i hardly ever get pissed off?! *SIGH* why NOW?!?!?! AW MAN! i feel like SHIT I TELL U! SHITTTT!!!!!

damn.. where's that person to make u feel better when u need it... :(

fine i'll just keep bitching..

1) parents - they're so damn strict it's getting to the point where i cant hack it anymore. i need a life. i need to get out and have fun. i need them to get off my back about the fucking HSC yes i know HSC is important but i think I KNOW THAT ALREADY!!! they dont even fucking trust me... why?! all because of a few stupid mistakes i made way back in fucking year 10. THAT WAS OVER 2 YEARS AGO! FOR FUCK'S SAKE GET OVER IT! STOOPID FUCKING PAULO RUINED MY FUCKING NON-EXISTANT LIFE AND I HATE HIM AND MYSELF FOR IT!!! *ARGHZ* i feel like pulling my hair outta my head now... IM GETTING REALLY REALLY ANGRY HERE!!!!

2) friends - i miss a certain somebody... to that person out there uno who u are: i wish things were back to the way they were. it was fun and now everybody's growing up and going their own ways. i dont wanna be that person left alone. i need u. i've known u since way back. we're like SISTERS dammit!!! you're my other half and i seriously dont feel 100% me when you're not there. *sigh*

3) no.6 - well no.6 isn't really a problem.. for some reason i just dont think he doesn't like me anymore? dammit... well if that's how u feel.. then that's how u feel... cant really make someone like me?

4) MY BROTHER - why the fuck does he have to be such a fucking bitch to me?! what the hell did i fucking do wrong this time?! he fucking hates me and i have no fucking idea why?! geez the least he could do was tell it to my face rather than fucking swear at me and shit and giving me crap for shit i didn't do!

5) ME - i think i am the biggest problem. i think too much and analyse too much shit that my brain's gone on overload. i probably just need to get all this crap outta my brain before it explodes. fuck and i need to clean my stupid fucking room in order to have a CLUTTER FREE ATMOSPHERE HENCE GIVING ME A CLUTTER FREE MIND

i think i've exploded enough for one day... i've settled down..
*WOOooOSaAaAaah!* yes.. yes i have settled down
ok.. back to doing my UAC preferences HOW SHIT IS DAT?!?!?! it's fucking DUE TOMORROW!!! that's bull- fucking-shit!!!! how we meant to make preferences when we dont even know our fucking UAI's?!?! fuck man! as if we can predict what we're gonna get for the HS fucking C! ARRRRRGGHHHHZZZZZ maybe i haven't settled down...

HEH FUCK IT im just not bothered to blog anymore of the shit that's inside my empty brain
toodles~!